Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Scleroderma


In a blog post entitled “A Death Sentence Known as Scleroderma,” a mom of a girl named Kelly speaks of Kelly’s daily struggle with the disease, Scleroderma. She says, “It is especially hard when you have no idea if your daughter will last a month, a year or ten years. And for all of the mothers out there whose children are just being diagnosed, I want them to have a better fighting chance than I believe my daughter received. And I don’t want them to ever hear the words ‘We don’t know what causes it, and don’t know how to cure it, so just sit back and wait to die.’ To child of 17, that is nothing more than a death sentence that never gets out of their head.” (P. Mooney, page 1) Scleroderma is an autoimmune disorder made up of a group of diseases that affect connective tissue and organs within the body; there are several types of scleroderma, there is no cure and research remains critically unfunded.
            The word scleroderma is derived from the Greek words “skleros” which means hard or indurate. It is also derived from the Greek word “derma” which means skin. Hippocrates first described the “scleroderma condition” as “thickened skin.” In 1752, the first detailed description of scleroderma was given as “wood like or containing a dry hide.” In 1836, the term scleroderma was applied to patient’s condition for the very first time. The patient had dark leather like skin and exhibited a loss of range in joint motion due to the skin tightening. (S. Jimenez, page 1)
            Even though doctors and scientists do know that it affects the skin and organs, the cause is universally unknown. There are also a few things that the disease is not. Scleroderma is not cancerous. It is now contagious. It is not infectious. It is not malignant. (Scleroderma Foundation, page 1) However, the cause is completely unknown. Though the cause is primarily unknown, it is known that it begins by one’s body producing too much collagen in the skin and other organs. (U.S. National Library of Medicine, page 1) There are two main types of Scleroderma, localized and systemic. Localized type often only affects the skin and does not generally harm the major organs of one’s body. The systemic type affects the skin, blood vessels, and the major organs. Most localized types show up before one reaches age 40 and is the least common in African Americans. Systemic type is more common in ages 30-50 and is generally more serious than the localized type. (National Institute of Arthritis and Musculoskeletal and Skin Diseases, page 2)
            Though the cause is unknown, the effects and symptoms are certainly alive and visible. The disease affects mainly the skin, kidneys, heart, digestion, lungs, teeth, movement, and speech. From those, however, other problems could stem. Skin problems could include dry and stiff skin, fingers or toes turning blue or white, hair loss, and skin hardening or tightening. (U.S. National Library of Medicine, page 1) Dry mouth and dental problems include tight skin on your face, trouble caring for teeth, and harm to tissues in the mouth can loosen teeth. “Gastrointestinal problems can include heartburn, trouble swallowing, feeling full as soon as you start eating, and diarrhea, constipation, and gas.” (National Institute of Arthritis and Musculoskeletal and Skin Diseases, page 5) Problems from lung damage could include loss of lung function, lung disease, scarring of lung tissue, and high blood pressure. Heart problems include scarring and weakness, swelling of the heart muscle, and a heartbeat that isn’t normal. Kidney failure can also result from Scleroderma. Most people with Scleroderma have skin changes in how their skin looks which can affect their self-image. (National Institute of Arthritis and Musculoskeletal and Skin Diseases, page 6)
            Because of all of the effects of Scleroderma, your life can be rather changed by this awful disease. Everyday activities can sometimes be brought to a halt due to fatigue or other physical limitations brought on by the disease. I know this first hand from the toll it has played on my Aunt Lisa throughout the last five to ten years. She was diagnosed at the age of 18 and has had spells over the years but it is just now really affecting her life. For example, everyday as soon as she gets home from work, she goes straight home to sleep because her body literally cannot take anymore. In most people, problems with digestion may require changes in diet and they may have to eat several small meals rather than a few larger meals. Moisturizer applied to the skin is also very imperative to deal with dry and stiff skin. Patients stay very cold and in order to stay warm, it is good to dress in layers, wear socks, boots and gloves. More important than coping with physical ailments, patients must learn how to deal with the physiological and emotional toll it takes on the body. Just like any other chronic, fatal disease, coping with the fact that there is virtually no cure is literally distressing on the body and mind, to know that you could literally just harden up and die. (America College of Rheumatology Communications, page 2)
            Currently, scleroderma research remains critically unfunded by the National Institute of Health. However, the Scleroderma Research Foundation is doing all that it can to provide research and funds to support the fight against Scleroderma and the race to a cure. “Until new therapies are made possible by advances in medical research, people living with scleroderma continue to have hope, knowing that scientists are working every day on their behalf.” (Scleroderma Research Foundation, page 1)
To me, this awful disease is worse than cancer because it can potentially affect the entire body, not just a certain area. There is no cure and patients living with it have to find other ways to cope with the disease. It is my prayer that scientists can find something to give people like my Aunt Lisa hope that one day this fatal, chronic disease can at least be brought to a halt to prolong life and make better the quality of life, despite Scleroderma.






Tuesday, September 9, 2014

for a reason..


I have so many thoughts running through my head right now... Let's see if I can write them all down to where it makes some sort of sense and maybe does some inspiring or enlightening along the way.. 

First, I am a "cliche" person who believes and takes to heart many cliche sayings, like, my favorite, "everything happens for a reason." Tonight, I can share two accounts or proof of this to be true. 
Tuesday nights for me consist of YoungLife and Worship at the Wesley House. YoungLife is always awesome and goes above and beyond my expectations, however, at Wesley tonight... we sang the worship song, "Came to My Rescue." Not only is this one of my favorite songs ever, but it is one of my "go-to" songs when I am struggling with something. 

I distinctly remember after a very difficult time in my life about six months ago, I literally think I sang that song every day for like two weeks straight. It starts out like this, "Falling to my knees in worship, giving all I am to seek Your Face, Lord all I am is Yours. My whole life I place in Your hands, God of Mercy, humbled I bow down, in Your presence, at Your throne." This song just speaks volumes to me about the literal act of humbling ourselves when we cannot bear the load anymore and being willing to give "it" to God, whatever "it" may be. For me at the time, it was just a mix of emotions--anger, bitterness, regret, sorrow.. you name it, I was feeling it. 

The chorus then follows and says, "I called, You answered.. You came to my rescue and I, I wanna be where You are.." The beauty in these lines is that yes, as believers in Christ, we must have a constant routine of giving things up to God, but after doing that, we must trust that He will come to our rescue and we must trust that we are to be where He is. To go where He says go and stay where He says stay. Tonight, though, as we sang the song, it meant something different to me. It was a thankful, rejoicing  song; I am thankful in the fact that six months ago when I sang (okay maybe I actually screamed) but when I sang that song then, HE came to my rescue. The Lord of all the Earth met me in my place of distrust, my place of hurt, my place of discomfort and reminded me that I am His. 

Throughout this past week, I have also been dealing with more crazy emotions and mixed feelings about where I am supposed to be right now, so tonight it was also, me saying, "Hey, Lord, here I am again. Show me where to go. I am here in worship, listening to You. Now would You show me the way? Would You please come to my rescue again?" I kind of think of Daddy's and their little girls... As a young girl, I always called upon my Daddy to rescue me, didn't matter what from-Daddy could always save the day.. Got a splinter? Call Daddy. Need some help getting out of a batting slump? Call Daddy. Want to go get away from the world and ride on the four wheeler? Call Daddy. Need some help building a simple machine for 4th grade science? Call Daddy. In the same way, we are told to call upon the Lord and whatever we ask of, we shall receive. I said all of that to say that I felt a sense of peace tonight as my fellow "students" and I sang that song to the top of our lungs tonight in worship. I felt that Jesus was right there, at my rescue, again. Singing that song happened for a reason. 

Secondly, later on tonight as I came back into my from the night of worship, I realized that my phone will not charge. Now, the first "reason" that comes to mind for this happening is the fact that I might need to stay off of it just a tad, but with my 1 year old son at home without me, I have a hard time believing that to be true. However, in order to keep myself busy until I feel ready to go to bed. I scanned Facebook, particularly my Facebook profile. My, how rewarding that was. I, first and foremost, got to see how God has worked through my life through different trials and how He has continuously answered prayers (things I posted prior that have since been answered). I was also reminded what a STRONG support system I have and the community I have surrounding me that loves me unconditionally, I literally cried reading some comments and statuses. I was reminded how harsh death can be and how quickly life can be ended, by reading through my posts about a dear friend, Peyton Randall (love you, sweet girl.) Lastly, I was slapped in the face with just how fast life passes us by. I scrolled through the last two years of my life and could not believe that some events literally happened TWO years ago when I feel like they happened yesterday. It is sad to me that we spend most of our time wishing for future time that we rarely enjoy the present, that is the way of the world. I felt a sense of guilt as I myself have wished time away as much as the next, but I now have a one year old who will soon be two and then twenty if I am not careful. Time is of the essence and I am thankful for the reminder. Though I am bummed about my phone and will literally have waterworks on the 3rd floor of MEP if it does not cut on in the morning, my, am i thankful that it cut off so that I had time to reflect. I believe that my phone crashed, tonight in particular, for a reason. I could almost hear God Himself saying, "slow down, Elizabeth." 



"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so you can learn to appreciate them when they go right.... somehow good things fall apart so that better things can fall together." 

Every little thing, I believe, happens for a reason...



Bless ya! 
Elizabeth 

Monday, September 8, 2014

centrifuge


My first thought about Centrifuge Brain Project video is that though I love roller coasters, I would never be able to ride any of those rides... Good thing they are fake, right? The wedding cake ride was absolutely brilliant! I think it is interesting that one, someone thought things up like roller coasters so interesting and in depth as to talk and think about how they would affect the brains of both kids and adults alike. Two, I also think that it is immensely time consuming of someone to 
completely make this up. 

However, it proves one obvious, yet ugly truth of the world today: everything that we see isn't true, especially things in and on the media. There are plenty of things in the media and on the internet or TV that completely aren't true, yet we perceive them as true because of former instances or because the ones providing info make it completely believable. 

Who's up for a ride on the wedding cake?? By the way, if you haven't seen the video- you must look it up to see for yourself... Type in Centrifuge Brain Project into Google. 






Wednesday, September 3, 2014

then sings my soul...



I know I have mentioned before just how thankful I am to be where I am right now in my life, but I am mentioning it again because the thankfulness still rings true, every single day, my heart is thankful. I am blessed and I realize that every day that I wake up at the beautiful campus that is Mercer University. I am grateful that I have met so many new friends while here and that I am able to be involved in so many new, challenging, rewarding things. Last night, me and one of my best girl friends sat down and wrote down things in our planner for the next couple of months. Literally, it is so full. However, the fullness brings joy to my soul. To know that I can spend a weekend at Epworth by the Sea with my Wesley group, to know that I have bible study one night a week, to know that I can wake up and go to the gym with friends, and to know that on Saturdays I will be in the stands cheering on the Bears brings utter fulfillment to my soul. I am so happy here and know that this is right where I am supposed to be at this particular time in my life. While most days, I have moments of weakness because I miss Clay, I press on because this is my new home and one day my new home will have made a totally new, better, enriching home for both me and him.


As teenagers, I know that we can get lost in this crazy world, trying to fit in and be somebody. It takes time and hard work to truly get where one wants to be. However, as teenagers, myself included, I hope that we can dig down deep to find where the rubber meets the road and to find where and what it is that makes us tick, what is it that makes our soul joyful, what is it that makes us content in where we are. For me, yes I am happy at Mercer, but before I made this move in my life, I prayed long and hard about it. I still pray continuously for God to show me His way and where I am supposed to be. I don't know that we are ever FULLY content, but I know that we can get pretty dang close if we take time to smell the roses, take time to listen to your heart, and take time to follow the One who leads your heart. I am thankful that I have done so for there is no doubt in my mind that I am right where He wants me. 




Romans 15:13 "May the God of hope fill you with joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."